It really is your choice Sarah

It really is your choice Sarah - Part 1

I’ve been an active shared wife for a number of years and welcome the opportunity to have sex with different partners of any age as often as I can. In addition to casual meetings, I enjoy spending weekends with a couple of my long term lovers… one of whom I’ve known from before I was married a few years ago and just can’t give him up! My Cuckold husband Marc has always known and accepts my many sexual activities and supports my needs to be shared with other men and couples.

I love to get together with my close girlfriends every so often and enjoy sharing intimate sex secrets over a few glasses of wine, in fact the more wine we drink the more secrets we share! At a recent afternoon session, I relaxed a bit and started telling my best friend Sarah about the benefits of being shared with other guys. She’s been married for over twenty years and has only ever had sex with her husband in all that time but she’s always been curious about my experiences although reminding me that the lifestyle ‘isn’t for me’ so we never really expanded the conversation. I felt that although we were close friends, she didn’t really want to be burdened with my more complex lifestyle choices so we didn’t really discuss details. I don’t think she has ever approved of the way I live my life but she was too diplomatic to go as far as telling me that.

Like many couples, Sarah’s marriage had gone stale and she confided in me that her husband had completely lost interest in her sexually and had confessed to having a couple of affairs. It was obvious she was going through a range of emotions and was clearly very hurt and betrayed. After producing two kids now in their twenties, she thought everything was going well between them and was shattered and hurt to discover his infidelities… she thought she had given him everything but it was clearly not enough for him.

In a slightly inebriated moment, I very tentatively suggested she might like to exercise or even ‘exorcise’ her frustrations and enjoy the uncomplicated sexual pleasures of “no strings attached” intimate sex with another guy. Her initial reaction was almost one of horror that I had even mentioned it even though she knows only too well I regularly have sexual relations with other partners male and female.
Like many ‘more mature women’ Sarah clearly felt she wasn’t attractive to men now she was older… “just look at me, what do you think I could offer at my age?” So I spent the next hour and a couple more glasses of chilled Pinot Grigio reminding her exactly what she ‘has to offer’
At forty eight she had developed into a a very appealing woman in so many ways but clearly very sexually suppressed and unappreciated. I gently coaxed her latent desires out of her and finally suggested she should spend some time with another lover, perhaps one of mine. Her immediate reaction was that she couldn’t possibly betray her husband but I did remind her he’d been more than happy to jeopardise their marriage and probably had enjoyed more than one or two affairs over the years, so perhaps this was her opportunity to enjoy some ‘no strings attached’ pleasure. Perhaps it was her turn to enjoy herself for once.

Her face flushed for a moment and I could see the slightly distant look in her eyes, I could almost hear the cogs turning in her mind as she was starting to warm to the idea. I kept reminding her that she still had a gorgeous curvaceous figure that men love and a lovely alluring smile. She still maintained she couldn’t go through with having full blown sex with another man as all she’s known was her husband and she was unsure she could even satisfy another man. She said she wouldn’t even know where to start looking for someone else. She confided that her husbands idea of intimate sex was a quick 5 minute grope as he fucked her missionary style, she also added that if he fucked her doggy style, it was like he didn’t want to look in her eyes, like he was punishing her, she felt like he was just using her body as a release and never even kissed her or held her lovingly afterwards. I was thinking clearly this woman needed some love!
Once she found out about his infidelities she told him she didn’t want him fucking her anymore and in an ensuing argument, he apparently told her she wasn’t much of a fuck anyway and never had been! …Pretty hurtful I guess for any woman to hear and she confided they hadn’t had sex for months and probably would not have sex again.

Like myself, she enjoys daily self loving sessions with her vibrator and dildo but was becoming increasingly frustrated knowing she had so much more to give. Her hubby regularly goes away on business so I asked if she would like me to approach my lover Mike who she had already met on a couple of occasions.
Sarah still maintained that although she would certainly enjoy closeness and kissing with Mike she didn’t feel she had the body he would find remotely sexually attractive. I suggested that instead of being embarrassed and shy about her body she should celebrate what she did have to offer, lovely long auburn hair surrounding a pretty face, curvaceous body with large breasts, inviting soft ass and by her own admission, a satisfying pussy.
Thinking about it for a moment I asked her if she would consider a ‘soft’ sharing session and explained it was everything she would feel comfortable with, but without actual penetration if that’s something she didn’t feel ready for. In other words, Just intimacy without actual fucking.
She was obviously thinking about that idea so I just let that thought sit with her for a few minutes while I ordered another bottle of chilled wine.

“What if he doesn’t like what he sees when I’m naked?” She asked as I sat down. “Only my husband has seen me naked, oh and you at the gym” I was becoming slightly exasperated by now “believe me Sarah, Mike is going to love spending time with you” She turned away flushed and clearly embarrassed then after a moment of reflection, she asked if she did go ahead with my suggestion, would it okay if she kept my underwear on?
As a compromise, I suggested she wore black stockings and black lacy lingerie which of course is my signature look! I could see in her face she was enjoying this thought and earlier doubts were evaporating as we spoke. “Won’t he want to fuck me though? I’m not sure I’m ready for it, I just want some love and affection” she was getting really excited about the thought but I could sense doubt.

“It’s entirely your decision Sarah, I’ve know and trusted Mike for fifteen years and he won’t ask you to do anything you don’t feel comfortable with” I added. Just take things nice and slowly at your own pace. Probably best to meet up with him at a nice hotel so you can enjoy a couple of drinks first and get to know each other away from distractions. Perhaps spend the whole afternoon together and If you’re not sure you want to share your body with him or you get cold feet, just call me and I’ll come and collect you straight away. Sarah seemed much happier and reassured by my suggestions but clearly still had some reservations.

“It still feels like cheating and I know you and Marc are okay with your lifestyle but I’ve got to tell you Mya that I’ve not actually had sex for months, ever since I found out he was cheating on me, I’m more than a bit out of practice if you know what I mean ” Again I reassured her that Mike would be very gentle and respectful towards her and not make her do anything she didn’t want to or he’d have me to answer to! I’m sure he will put your mind at ease and he won’t put you under any pressure, that’s not his style.

I could see doubt creeping back into her mind as she confessed that although she’d been married for twenty years, she wasn’t very experienced at sucking cock or offering her body in different imaginative pleasing positions as “it’s something we just don’t do” she explained. “Perhaps you could be his Virgin” I laughingly suggested!
Looking at my watch for the first time I realised over two hours had flown past and asked the bartender to call us a cab.

As we left the bar, I suggested she went home and while her husband was away for the next couple of weeks, she have a really good long think about what I had suggested and in the meantime I would have a conversation with Mike to see how he felt about meeting up with you.
“Aren’t you going to feel jealous” Sarah said as we crossed towards the cab,”I’m my own woman Sarah, I don’t do jealousy, I’d be happy for you” “but what about Marc?” She asked, “I’m not sure he needs to know about this idea does he” I replied. I suggested Sarah gave this proposal some serious consideration and I would call her in a couple of days, if there was anything she wanted to ask me, then feel free to ask anytime.

Well it didn’t take more than a day before a took a call from Sarah. She told me she’d had a sleepless night thinking a bit what I’d had proposed. I reassured her I’d already spoken to Mike the previous evening after I’d arrived home and he would be happy to offer his services. I could sense the relief and excitement in her voice but perhaps tinged with apprehension. “I’m still unsure he’s going to want to have sex with me when he sees me naked” “we’ve had this conversation Sarah” I said, and Mike told me he would be delighted to help you on your journey of self discovery as he put it”

Sarah said “I stood in front of my full length mirror in black stockings and lingerie as you suggested Mya wearing new lingerie I bought after our chat yesterday and although I’ve got a couple of bulges here and there, with the right bra and panties on, and fully shaved, I felt quite desirable and womanly for the first time in a long while” I told her I was really pleased for her but just take some time to re-explore her own body, to reacquaint herself with what she really enjoys. “I don’t want to sound rude” Sarah said, “but you’ve had a great deal of experience having sex with other guys and I’ve only ever had sex with the same man” “I’m a bit worried about how you separate your feelings, don’t you ever feel like you’re falling in love with other guys?” I had to be truthful now, I knew that, “yes that happens Sarah, sometimes people get hurt but I’ve learned the hard way how to deal with anything that damages my relationship with Marc”

“What if I changed my mind and got caught up in the passion of the moment of having a man holding me in his arms and wanting me? What if I wanted to choose to go further?”
“Well that’s entirely your decision” Sarah I said, “we’ve known each other long enough to respect each others wishes and I’ve asked Mike to respect yours.
What he’s agreed is that if you keep your panties on he would not attempt to penetrate you” is that okay with you?” ….If you voluntarily remove your panties it will be a signal that you would like him to actually penetrate you” I could sense Sarah processing this thought and she just nodded in silent agreement.
“I’m a bit worried about protection if I was to change my mind?” I could see Sarah was starting to think more positively about the scenario and I reassured her that should she want Mike to actually penetrate her, he would abide by her wishes of wearing a condom if she didn’t want his semen inside her although I did mention I prefer to feel him bareback.

“What if I’m doing this out of revenge Mya?” she said “like a revenge fuck” …”Well I can’t answer that for you Sarah only you know the answer to that. I would encourage you to think about your husband fucking girls probably much younger than you and then think about your motives. I don’t want to appear harsh Sarah and we’ve known each other for quite a while now, I just want to be honest with you and In my opinion, you need to wake up to reality and instead of considering if it’s a revenge fuck, consider its just the start of a new life journey for you. It sounds to me like you need to move on”

“Mya, I’m not sure how you feel about it and I’m not even sure I should ask, but would you mind coming round later on this evening, I need your advice on my choice of lingerie and an honest appraisal of how I look naked and dressed to please, perhaps a few pointers? after all you know what Mike likes in a woman”
I couldn’t repress my inward smile, “of course Sarah, I’ll come about eight if that’s okay, give you plenty of time to get ready”


Part 2 to follow